'♥ Aly Hagaishi

woots ! currently dead bored . as usual , i cant sleep .

wahliao .

5th monthsary wasnt a good start afterall .

my handphone got stolen , sial btol luhh saper yg curik .

hidop tkkn selamat siia gitu mciam .

lols . tkper , dhea yang curik . dosa and hukuman dhea tanggung .

-FG syg

dont worry lah bhy . not your fault , tthings are just gonna happen which we cant stop it from coming . its just patience tested .

im relaaaxed and fine , dont get so worked up .

though dhats the first gift from abg dhat i had .

which is actually the most precious thing from abg , but allah dar tentukan yang hp tuh tk lamer bersame i . so i cant do anything .

furthermore maybe this dugaan comes by to see whether you have really changed or not .

its simply trying to test you , whether are you true saying dhat you wwanna change .

hmms . dont worry lah syg , ader duit ntti buy hp laen for me .

As for now , you must buy a hp for yourself so dhat i can contact you and also sim card .

hmms . can syg ? slowly kay .

as for now , my sacrifice is getting even bigger for him , but im not gonna say it though .

hmms , now my days are coming back to those days i first met him and talked . where i waited for him for days on msn . lack of sleep and alot of worries . but i managed to stay strong .

so now , sacrifice is meant to be made again .

nevermind syg , will stay waiting for you as usual .

I hope after this nothing else is going away from my life .

enough with losing my two beloved sisters , then now my hp and im not gonna tolerate losing anything or anyone else . especially FG .

- FG ; dont worry kay syg . hope you're fine and taking care of yourself at work . ILOVEYOU . (:

yesterday , slept late morning and woke up at 7plus . saw FG online , so chatted with him . He was so damn sad and afraid . he told me dhat my hp and also hys got stolen . i was shocked , yes i was but i kept cool . i didnt wanna get so worked up . coz its a small matter to me .

things are meant to happen .

then met him up at bedok . i took circle line to paya lebar and then to bedok . dropped at tanah merah interchange . (:

walked alone to FG's block .

then he came down , went to buy cigg .

Then lepak , while eating . i was eating , FG ate already .

hmms .

then smokesmoke , at last i got my GG ! argh ~

been craving for it . lols .

yay ! walaupon hp aku telah dicuri , tpi peliknyer tetap aku good mood mciam biase .

-FG , it wasnt on purpose i played mind games with you . i just wanted to see your reaction .

hmms . sorry if i made you feel hurt . hmms . but nevertheless , thks baby coz you're so confident and strong for me . and thks for trusting me alot . i wont even ever betray your trust .

then mins getaway , lols . and then texted ayah to fetch me home . met ayah at 1am and off i head home . sorry love never salam you when nak alek .

anw bhy , somehow imy alrdy and im scared . hais .

im afraid if anything goes wrong .

baby please dont go back to your past . i dont want .

and please dont leave . i dunnoe why im just so afraid . maybe its because of the days im left with . hais .

love , will be waiting for you at msn at usual . hoping you will be fine and safe wherever you are . iloveyou .

God , please keep him safe wherever he is . I cant contact him now , you're my eyes now . Please look after him when i couldnt , but im waiting for him . give him a long life to be with me till last breathe . i love him and no other .

God , i need him and i want him . please , be my eyes when im blind (:

Above are pichas dhat i just editted . more at fb and tagged . hehs . (:

-IMK

ya allah , aper yang salah phm nie ?

i was just saying baek2 , i never slhkan you anything .

aduhhh ; who's blaming you . if BPS wants to be with you , then oklah . at least i know of someone to take care of her .

im just reminding you , since im not there , take good care of her .

dlu dhea tak buat keje bodoh nie smuer . im not blaming you yang tarik dhea uat mciam2 benda , but at least if she thinks of doing it , stop her .

She never took it when she was with me .

i trust you of taking care of her , but i hear stories dhat disappoints me .

jgn lah slh phm dlu sampai mciam2 benda klua . you want me to chat , i can . doesnt mean i dont chat means i have revenge or anything against you . aduhhh ; come on lah . you are not stoopid i know , but im not stoopid either to revenge and keep grudges to people . dhats not me .

seriously IMK , jgn slh phm dlu .

i dont want her to take as much as i dont want you to take .

it hurts when i heard the stories . you girls never took it when you are with me . what happened now ? stress ? come on korg , im still here . hais , seriously jgn slh phm .

much love - ES