the last night i really spend time going out with love to newton for supper .

gosh , i'm missing him badly .

real badly ~

hais .

i got to spend my afternoon and night with love . [:

the moments i had with me , my long precious hair .

imissmylonghair.

stoopid of me to snip it short !

]:

nvm , sabar jer tgu panjang . i hope [:

pic editted by : babyputeriy .

thaaaanks love [:

thaaanks adeq for helping me edit pichas .

and whats stated in fiq's picture , is really what i feel .

i cant deny , can never deny howh much i love him .

more than i ever loved any other guys .

not even my ex who have been with me for 2 years 4 mths felt this much love from me .

well , talking abt my ex yang 2 yrs plus tuh , alhamdulillah .

i heard he already got married to this girl and she's expecting .

so , i wish you and your family a happy life .

and hoping you'd be responsible to take care of your family now dhat you're the heead of the family yeaaa ?

you have my well wishes . [:

back to my babylove's story .

maybe nothing i do can ever show this love so true for you .

but you'll never know whats kept deep down in this heart of mine .

only actions can be shown to prove the love i have for you syg .

well , maybe stories are meant to be told but you cant actually expect them all to be true ?

kays , lets get back to the stories dhat i got from my informer [:

he contacted other girls , he went out with other girls holding hands ,

he got drunk with other girls

anything else did i missed ?

kalau ader blg tao , thanks sngt psl all the info yang nmpk btol dari exaggerated words but still truth we dunnoe .

hehs , aku pon fed up tk tentu psl . LOL!

kelakar lah nie story ku dgr .

sumpah !

anw , pade saper yang inform aku psl nie . thanks , aku appreciate aper korg uat untok aku .

aku cumer stating aper aku tawu pt blog aku . jadi tkder org slh phm .

and aku bkn nak ckp kau tak gune ke pape nak rosakkan aku dgn fiq .

you stakat tell me stories you dgr kan ? so dats all lah .

you sampaikan citer , i never say you yang nak rosakkan my r/s with fiq . tak btol ?

tkya nak terasa ker pape .

i mean , aku tkder nak buat musoh seyh .

i thank you for telling me .

lau ader story laen , feel free to tell me .

i dont mind .

allah bersama org yang sabar dan org yang melalui setiap masalah .

so im dealing with my problem .

i dont think there's any problem .

sblm jadi pape hal , let me explain dlu pt sini .

kay jom , lets have all their talks here.

he contacted other girls ?

hmms , kwn skola lamer dhea ?

hehs . and just a girl yang mintak dier downloadkan video step up 3 ?

stakat tanyer , video dar bez sent .

or maybe ader org mintak dier number pmpn yang tuh .

so dier kasi uhs , beh skrg tibe2 klua mciam2 story yg fiq contact2 pmpn ? gitu ?

dier klua pimpin tangan pmpn laen ,

when did dhat someone saw dhat ?months back ?

maybe it was his ex ?

or maybe , kiter nak gi belik rokok dat time .

and i just snipped my hair short

and tk pakai make up lagik .

tuh ker pmpn laen tuh ?

cause when i cut hair , ramai ckp , pmpn baru per ?

LOFL !

padahal , its me ! same person , different hairstyle and no make up .

dier mabok dgn pmpn laen ?

hmms , last dier minom sampai mabok was like months back with me [:

hehs . and they never drink until mabok anymore [:

hee ^^

mabok dgn pmpn laen , bnyk dier per duit nak gi mabok dgn pmpn laen ?

haha !

chalet bnyk pmpn ?

korg btol2 check tk tuh pmpn ker bkn ? hehs .

cnfirm dorg smuer pmpn ?

tuh chalet , chalet saper ? ader check tak ?

weee ~

conversation :

he and his guy friend .

him : eyhs dhat time chalet bnyk pmpn per ?

his friend who was also there : bnyk bnyk ! lelaki jadi pmpn bnyk !

korg dpt citer dari maner ? dari time dorg bbl with each other ?

korg cukop knl ker style joking dorg ?

haha ! tak cukop knl then jgn take it seriously .

aku dar bnyk kali kenek kacau dgn budak2 saner .

and it didnt hit me much at all . coz , dorg tgk aku diam thrus dorg change topic . haha !

buat bodoh jer uhs .

example :

eyhs fiq , yang dhat time kau bwk thrun pt sini pmpn maner uhs ?

bkn eyya kan ?

the only thing fiq and the rest did was laugh ?

hehs . kalau jokes yang mciam nie , then aku dar biase kene .

its simply jokes . LOFL . korg really nmpk per ? or more of like dgr citer then pass story ?

or maybe even tu story dar berbulan-bulan lepas ?

hehs . lagipon mmg dlu dier perangai sundal . dier sendiri mengaku dlu dier mciam tuh .

tpi aku rase kalau dier dpt pmpn yang btol , i dont think so ! hehs .

anw , yang psl tnet tuh ?

haha ! dier lepak saner , tuh time kiter nga crisis biase jer .

and he told me before .

aku jer yang luper .

hehs .

tkder soccer training ? cnfirm bo ?

tawu the truth tk ?

hehs . maen bola tak semestinyer pt tnet jer per .

heee ^.^

ader tmpt laen dier blh gi maen bola .

korg really up to date ke maner dier pergi sampai skrg ?

mmg , dier ader hide the fact yang dier thrun chalet .

truthfully , its because of me .

each time dier nak gi maner2 without me and he tells me .

aku akan kasi tpi care aku type will make him stop from going to where he planned .

and because of dat he followed the wrong step and hide the facts .

and furthermore , he forgot to bring his hp .

and im close to his mum when it comes to msging and stuff .

so , his mum will text me when he's not home or anything . coz his mum will ask me first .

well , apparently , i texted his mum .

and his mum said she didnt text me cause she thought i knew where he went .

so she told me evrything .

he went playing soccer in the rain and came home all wet .

and bla bla bla .

so i guess , nothing beats this already . too bad . HAHA !

hp ilang ? hmph . mmg tuh hp ilang , police report ader . so ?

and duit fiq yang ilang , hahaha ! tkkn member penat2 keje tkder duit gaji kan .

dar dpt duit gaji , tk semestinyer org laen in his family tk damn dier and buat alek aper dier penah buat kan ?

please lah , lau tk tawu mciam maner perangai org , then dont say anything first .

and psl curik2 tuh pon , i ask fiq already . he told me evrything .

first thing when i ask him and read my adeq's blog , he smile .

sarcastic one , cause he knows he's not at fault .

and , he's not even afraid to face it at all .

but deep down i know dier geram .

sbb , org msh label dier perangai sundal .

dier sendiri ckp , lau dlu i tk kesah uhs org nak ckp mciam2 psl i coz i tawu i sundal dlu .

tpi skrg pon nak ckp nie mciam ?

and dier sendiri tawu dier dar berubah n nak setia with me .

so ? korg tk tawu per hati dier mciam maner ?

anws , mmg bnyk lah story2 yang aku dpt .

tpi totally lari lah siaaa dari aper yg btol2 jadi .

seriously .

even heard it from the others also .

tkkn korg msh tklei terime aku dgn fiq together , tkder gadoh tkder pape hal .

still jealous or nak pisahkan kiter ?

cause envy my r/s with fiq tkder gadoh ?

smuer dier buat psl dier tknk aku marah . coz when aku marah mciam2 blh jadi . so ?

so skrg nak start all the fights for us ker ?

aku tkkn terus gadoh lau tk tanyer dlu .

hahaha ! too bad lah kan .

kalau btol dier buat salah , kau ingt dier ader muker nak gi jumper aku or talk to me ?

and after reading his explainations .

some parts my fault jgk .

aku mmg overprotective over him but also letting loose sometimes .

i did it sbb nak baikkan dier and mak dier.

so ?

then when i think back , tak slh dier lepak if dier tawu time alek smuer .

and not lepak sampai pagi2 .

andand , i think , its fine sbb dier sendiri suroh aku buatkan schedule on certain days to lepak .

so aku rase his doing fine per ? tkya ader spot check .

hehs . pape hal aku blh spot check sendiri [:

hehs .

tio boh sygg ? hehs .

hehs . i've been able to catch you red handed most of the time .

heee ^.^

but , no marah2 right ?

we talk2 . hehs .

so , lau ader pape lagi story lah kan , nak blg pon blh , tk blg pon tkper .

hehs . sbb nti pelan2 smuer reveal sendiri .

but story yang aku dpt mmg smuer wrong info .

seriously . most of the faults dier buat mainly aku dar tawu lurhh .

and if only he and his siblings is fine and in talking terms , im shure he wouldnt be lonely.

hais . well baby , i'm still here .

and im guess your friends is still there .

anw , you can lepak but as long as you know your limits , timing , and the right and also wrongs .

kay love ? and just tell me wherever you're heading .

you're just scared i'd scold you upside down right ?

but not telling me , will have more cnflicts .

hmms .

well , whatever it is . things are settled for now .

insya allah ; no more please .

only allah knows evrything . [:

nothing can evade howh much im loving Mohd Afiq Bin Abdul Rahman [:

kays , lets talk abt smlm .[:

hehs .

yesterday , lepas chat dgn storytellers ku , aku off lappy and pergi tydo dgn airmata [: haha !

yupyup , mate ku lebam siul ~

nanges nyer psl . ishk ~

then around tgh hari gitu ku bangun , and text mak afiq dlu .

text , then she replied saying yang she never text coz she ingt i know where afiq pergi .

at least he told his mum his destination [: goodgood [:

and so , i went online after dhat .

then saw him online .

so i chatted with him . we talked things out .

he's fired up coz most stories are not to what he did .

but he kept cool .

so we met , and yeaa had a talk .

at first , mmg mciam tknk bbl uhs .

i came down to bedok , then met him under his block .

then waited for him to come down [:

then i just had few puffs and tgu ajee uhs .

then he came down .

as a matter of respect i always do to evryone .

i salam-ed him as usual .

and , we started talking [:

i asked him evrything .

with calmness , he replied to my every question .

after chit chatty under his block .

and sarung the ciincin back again to my finger [:

then we decided nak gi lan game ;P

hehs . as usual , kesian fiq dar lamer tak gi blackshot .

hehs . then time tgh tgu bus .

got a call from wai , then teman baby to his house sampai luar then he got change to something better looking . dier ngan tempang2 , hahaha ! cute siak . ^^

tpi kesian pon ader jgk . heee ^^

then at last , we walked to block wai .

pergi block wai , then teman wai to his grandparents place kejap .

then off to kfc at bedok central.

then met up with the rest .

and then headed to grandlink for 3 hours of karaoke [:

heee ^^

kat saner , had much fun . with baby and the rest .

sang songs , and i think love is better now in singing .

hahahaha !

beh saner maha sejuk sia !

beh love hug me tight and rub my hands to make me feel warm .

[: suker suker ! hehs .

then first i sang was lagu dua insan with wai .

haha !

then the boys sing turn by turn . mciam2 lagu seyh dorg nyanyi .

hahaha !

dari lagu lamer2 sampai lagu amuk siaaa !

hehs .

then aku tk tawu saper gi choose lagu takkan pisah .

beh dorg tolak mic pt aku . -,-

nak tknk aku nyanyi uhs . no choice .

hahahahah !

then baby sing lagu bukan ku tak sudi sorg [:

i like (:

and then , headed back to bedok naek cabby .

thrun kt new upper changi road .

then gi 7-11 pt saner , and sat at 26 kejap .

with the rest , then head to block 28 plak .

dhats where , the last time i got drunk with baby .

hahahaha !

then suddenly , my head was being a bitch . then i just baring at love's lap .

and i eventually fell asleep .

hhahahaha !

then some went off already . and then comes love's abg sdare lepak with us at 28 .

heehs . aku tido tpi dgr siaa aper dorg bbl .

bbl mepek seyh dorg .

hahahah !

love thrus ngantok skali seyh . beh at last dier pon baring .

hahaha ! sweet siaa dier , kaki padahal dar saket , aku gi baring sampai cramp and pins and needles siaaa .

sorry love .

hmms . then from 3am till 5am , aku baring jer all the way [:

hehs .

then heard dorg nyer jokes smuer . LOL!

i think , these groups of friends is fine [:

mmg aku tk serapat maner dgn dorg lah .

but i think dar okay uhs . still sorg kacau2 aku dgn love .

hehs . i had fun seriously .

then thawn till morning [:

afterwhich love sent me to mrt station tpi kan tklei uhs .

naek train pagi2 , blh pengsan !

so decided to naek bus instead , so walked with baby to interchange ,.

then he teman me till my bus come .

then he also wait for bus . texted with love for awhile [:

then i fell asleep in the bus siul ~ but ader some things made love down kejap .

but insya allah , nti okay jgk .

sabar kays love . will help you .

then tibe2 baby also senyap .

then he text me dhat he reached home already . then thrus tertydo .

same goes to me !

i fell asleep too !

hahahaah , then arnd 2plus heard lagu takkan pisah .

so , tawu sngt lah yang sygkush online [:

then chat with him . the first thing i did was to tegor him saying hey .

then he replied the same thing and followed by , ahsal tak text me when you reached home ?

oops , sorry love . i tertydo lurhh .

then off he goes for training with the rest .

told him to come home straight after training to rest .

and yeaaa , he texted me when he reached home tdi at 10plus .

but sadly , i think baby's lack of rest and needs to get ample rest .

he's getting sick .

baby , get well soon .

have good rest . text a few msgs with him .

and yeaa , now off to sleep .

im sleeping soon too .

will be waiting for you to come online once you have enough rest love . [:

i love you , no matter what . [:

191209 , always stay together [:

insya allah , with god's grace .

please god , gimme the strength i need to endure with every single problem dat is arising .

im hoping my decision is a right one as im following my heart .

and i hope i'll last with Mohd Afiq sygg [:

i simply love him just the way he is .

Bukan cinta biasa kasih .

Biarpun berat dugaan , akan ku lalui bersamamu kasih .

biarpun sulit mahupun pedih , akan ku janjikan kesetiaan dan cinta yang tulus dari lubuk hatiku .

ku berharap dirimu tercipta untukku .

biarpun badai yang melanda akan lebih berat dari yang lain , akan aku tempuhi bersamamu .

indahnya kisah cinta kita , kasih , harta pangkat , ringgit yang berjuta tak menjamin cinta .

ku mencintaimu apa adanya [:

ku tahu hanya satu saja insan yang akan bertahan dgn dirimu sygg .

ku akan pastikan , insan itu adalah diriku . insya allah [:

aku berharap , cinta kita kan kekal abadi .

once again , aku bkn nak carik musoh . aku bkn nak carik hal .

aku just state what i know in my blog .

and if any story lagi klua , do come and tell .

i dont mind [:

its fine with me .

im might not have anyone but i have allah with me .

no worries . insya allah , help is there for someone patient .

to the ppl who gave me infos , thanks so much .

sekalipun info slh atau btol , aku tk slhkan korg .

korg just tell aper korg tawu .

so , harap2 lepas nie nothing kays ?

im writing what i feel . so up to korg howh nak nilaikan kays .

take care my peeps.

im off to bed.