19december09 

The first real love i had . 

; reading your post , makes me realise alot of things . 

only then i realise the fault i made . 

when all this while i only treated him as a friend not more . 

hys unexcepted talkings , are meant as jokes to me . 

he took it seriously , whereas i didnt . 

he took advantage coz , he knows im down and i might not have hopes to you . 

and he thought he could have chances . 

he talked to me in an inappropriate manner , but i replied him with pathetic faces . 

i know , its my fault for letting the webcam run along . 

he pujok me with anything to be with him , but i styl put him aside . 

i remember , i have you . 

i love you , dhats why , 

dea mmg ader niat laen , tpy i dont have niat burok terhadap you bhy . 

after so long of happiness , sucha big impact of fight we have . 

it broke me apart . 

you took my strength away , my love away . 

coz i know i gave my love and heart not to my soul too . 

when you are this way , it hurt me hard . 

Hit me hard enough . 

It pains me to see you like this . 

Made me remember , the past . 

Wondering hard what your decision might be , 

i feel like i cant let you off easily . 

Afraid of any possibilities that might turned out from your mouth . 

Which i know if the decision pains me , i wont be able to accept the facts . 

i dont wanna see myself alone without you . 

i dont wanna see my life , without you with me . 

i cant imagine howh hard can life be without you by my side . 

coz i know you're my true love and the only one i loved so much . 

Mohd Afiq , we've been thru alot my dear to let things go easily . 

but if its your decisions , i have to accept . 

but deep down , i styl put hope on you . 

i can hardly move on without you . 

Love , im sorry to have done this . 

I know howh much it hurts you . 

i understand your evry whines . 

And i dont use any winning points . 

As i wrote in my blog and apologize to you , therefore people know its my mistake . 

I wish things done can be undone , 

but i know its impossible . 

But why couldnt you confront me about it and settle it ?

Why you dragged it , why didnt you make an effort to bring me down and ask . 

instead you lied , by activating fake calls . 

you made me trust you again . 

and telling me your mum's fetching you . 

and you went off with the pain and took train 

I cant forget you , the first guy who ayah accepted warmly . 

the first guy who stepped into my house and thawn with me . 

the first guy who ayah trust much enough . 

As for me , the first girl who stepped into your homey . 

The first girl who have seen your entire big family . 

The girl who can be accepted by your mum  

The girl who can help your mum . 

the girl who your mum helped when facing problems . 

The girl who did her best to console you . 

To sacrifice evrything . 

To put aside evrything . 

To understand you and spend evry moment she have for you .

Being strong going thru evry single things happening , 

Getting people to anti me , 

The girl who thinks of future with you . 

The girl who wants you to be one and only legal husband one day , 

Doesnt it speaks alot of me syg ? 

All i've done , 

Yes , i appreciate you , for not flirting , not having other girls though you're once a "SUNDAL"

but , im not having affair either . 

Thank you , for changing , for being there with me , for consoling me , for being true to me , for being honest now . 

But i guess , things just meant to happen to see howh strong are we to handle shyts like this  

When i know deep down , we styl have the love for each other . 

I hope nothing is happening to us right ? 

I've chosen you , and my choice to be with is you . 

Please dont do this to me . 

I need you . 

like i need my heartbeat dear soul . 

hais. 

I hope now , im letting you off with some space , you wont do anything dhat'll hurt me right ? 

i beg you . 

Deep down , i will always love you , and only you . 

Love , do you remember howh many sweet memories we had ?

About howh i fell for you , you went in and rightaway grind with me . 

Those maya days my dear , of all the other guys , i chose you to fall for . 

My heart opened for you . 

When i know , its hard for me to love anyone . 

You came as my saviour . 

Remember evrything dhat happened on 19 december 2009 . 

The most memorable date ever in my life . 

Im shure , you remember evrything right ?

Remember the fun we had. 

Howh we settled evry problems with sitting and talking . 

The pain we went thru . 

The 15 mins kiss , 

Howh i cried , when you didnt contact me . 

Howh i waited for you . 

120210 , 

We were suppose to meet to celebrate advance V'day . 

End up i went out with babygirls . 

I bought you the necklace , the gifts . 

Im shure its styl with you . 

Im shure now , you're missing me too . 

I'm shure you cry , seeing us this way . 

Im shure , you remember wat happened on 060610

Im shure you remember howh i made an effort to find you . 

I put aside my studies for you , 

i put aside my job for you . 

im shure you feel exactly the same as what im feeling my dear , 

i know , coz we have the same feelings thru aanything . 

Yes , i had much pain before but i kept them in this heart of mine . 

You gave me shyts and im facing own problems . 

And the girl from your past keeps haunting me . 

Howh strong i was to pull thru , 

To go thru evrything .

I miss it , i miss you , i miss your mum , 

hais . 

When i thought that i was at the edge to give up . 

You came giving me strength and hope again . 

You brighten my life and made me smile , 

but you put tears on my face again . 

Those lies and all . 

Too much , it was too much to handle . 

But why when this kind of thing happened you became like this . 

Like i told you , you dunnoe karma . 

karma might hit you once , twice or thrice . 

i myself dont know . 

hais . 

i hope with you reading this , will refresh you up and give you hope . 

dhat i loved you so much . 

i cant live life without you . 

We have too much memories to keep , and much pain to hold. 

Our Sweet Memories are too much to be forgotten . 

Sri Arianti , Mohd Afiq . 

Eyy [ A ] fyq selamanya biarpun apa yang berlaku . 

I love you from the bottom of my heart until the day i die . 

ILOVEYOU ! 

Dont leave please .

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I plead you my dear , i cant live without you .