Candid shot by my maid ^^ 

its nice though . hehs . 

Fyq Gyler ; Only Eyya Seraphiel's

I can be your Sweet Dreams , Beautiful Nightmare (:

you decide ya ?

Mohd Afiq , Sri Arianti . 

Fyq Gyler ; Eyya Seraphiel Daneesya Wyatts . 

Mind you , Eyya Seraphiel Daneesya aint my nicky . 

It's my real name , from my past religion . 

Was once roman catholic ; Dutch mixture .  , 

dhats my catholic name to be exact ; Eyya Seraphiel Daneesya Wyatts . 

Well , hey there bloggers . 

currently tuning in to Mimpi Indah . 

Trust me , im feeling down . 

Tremendously down . 

And idk whyy . 

Actually im suppose to sleep , but im not sleepy at all . 

Im down , worried and evrything . 

hais . 

All the negative feelings are surrounding me right now . 

This song i'm tuning in to , makes me shed tears , 

the meaning is so deep , and touching . 

trust me , it is . 

especially when im alone in my room .

The past haunts me and i keep flashbacking about it . 

Its like the darkest times of my life . 

All i could do , is to just pray dhat things really get better for me . 

And hope for the best , dhats all i could do . 

Nothing else . 

Or , weep myself to sleep .

Shed tears in silence . 

Though days are fine , with my beloved , but this past , lingers in my mind , making me remember it all agaaiin . Is it ever gonna get out of my mind ? 

Past , stop haunting me and making me worried . 

Truthfully , though the change he shown me , im styl as worried and frighten of anything upcoming happenings .I dunnoe howh much longer i can stand this . 

Being extremely patient and forgiving is hurtful . 

Promises can be kept but meanwhile it could be broken yet again ; dhats what im afraid of . 

Trust me , i wish , things are over , the hurtful moments are really gone . 

I've had enough of shedding tears , had enough of hurts . 

I just wanna live my life happily . 

I've gone thru alot of painful experience and i dont wish to go thru anymore . 

I simply hope and pray much dhat he is really changed and really true to me . 

I cant be accepting anymore hurtings from hym . 

Furthermore , i loved hym so much . 

I didnt want my attitude to change . 

But im sorry im this way , but you should know why right bubu ? 

Why i became like this ? 

But i know , you dont wish for me to stay this way . 

You want me to trust and love you just like before . 

But its so hard , its so painful . 

As im afraid if i ever give you the full trust and love again , you'd betray it once again . 

You made me lose my original self . 

My cheerful features , my crazy acts . 

Its all gone my dear , but deep down its styl there . 

Im afraid when i have high hopes , and really happy but you threw me down again and made my dreams of us shatter ~

Shhattered badly , till you cant fix it no more . 

When dhat moment happens , its gone baby .

I guess i simply loved you too much . 

Dhats why , im this way . 

Caught in my own misery , and pain . 

Those voices of you , evry of it , keep lingering in my mind . 

I dunnoe if you're keeping to those promises . 

I hope you are , now dhat you're changed . 

But alot of improtus are coming up to you , i dunnoe howh are we gonna deal with it . 

I cant imagine . ):

While typing this , im holding back my tears which are about to lose their grip to my eyes . 

Coz i was told by you , to keep being strong . 

But every person have limitations to their own patience and pain dhat they can accept . 

Those tears i've wasted , and i dont wanna have anymore bad moments . 

I'm trying to pull up my trust to you , but i cant . im afraiid . 

Like they say , sejarah mungkin berulang . 

And i cant accept if history repeats itself . 

Sayang , right now , im sorry coz im not asleep since afternoon after we came back . 

Coz i tried my best to go to sleep but i couldnt . 

I keep remembering those hideous and painful moments dhat you once gave to me . 

But at the least , i texted you to tell im not asleep . 

But as for what you told me , you're sleeping . 

So i let you have your rest kays love ? 

This is simply where i leave all my thoughts , my pain , my tears , my hurtings . 

I tried to fuck the past kind of thinking . but i couldnt . 

im moving on , yes i am . 

A new life with you , but deep down styl the cut is there and the scar . 

The feelings of frighten is always there . 

Afraid you'd repeat those past of yours . 

i cant bare with it . 

baby , i hope you're true by now . And dhat you really are proving this change . 

I'll pray hard for you , i'll be there at the end of the day though im hurt . 

i know dhat . 

whatever it is , i will love you like no other girl ever did . (:

okay ~ enough with the sadsad moments . 

now lets turn in to , daily rants . 

heee ^^

so yeaaa , the other day we stayed home for the whole day and night after drink drank drunk lor . 

Then yesterday we met , at around , 7plus . 

Then , planned to thawn at changi , as it has been some time since we last spent our night there . 

Then met BabyPuteriySweets . 

First tyme ever to meet AdeqkRaikhan , 

had a talk with him . 

Baby had a talk with my bubu ~ 

And then had important talks here and there then off we went separate ways . 

Sent baby , raikhan , and hys sister to bus stand and let them go off . 

Then me and bubu , headed to 26 and bought ciggies . 

Then off we took bus 2 and headed to changi . 

Then bought food , snacks and drinks . 

off to tent , and rest while singing and strummed guitar . 

Then we were perspiring , haha ! 

then until 3am roughly , screened by the authorities . 

So , they asked for camping permit , and i was so kanchiong . 

haha ! padahal tuh permit ader  pat aku peh kocek slua . 

aku caryk mciam nak mampos tak dapat . then in the end , aku caryk tmpt laen , baby caryk pat slua kuh . 

dapat lah pulak . alerrrrr , then he mintak ic , so kasi lah . 

then kasi permit , then dier mintak hp and tulis the number aper ntahhh . 

then i give both hp laa , coz holding on to mine and hys hp . 

Bubu mciam bodoh , "ehhh bhy , maner my phone ?"

padahal im beside him holding both phones -.-

haha ! siaksiak , then dar bez amek particulars . 

then the police melayu seyh , beh dier ckp , bgs lah korg , carik for  each other . 

you guys make a good couple . =.=

aku ketawe jer , rather funny siaa . 

police gerek plak tuh . 

hehs . 

heee ^^ 

then we just lepak again , lepas makan smuer . 

then aku dar start ngantOk , hehs . 

lepas tuh tydo tyme lor . 

heeee ^^

bubu , you know i know kays ? 

lagypon tuh tyme dar start sejuk ! 

haha , sedap tyto ! 

heee ^^

afterwhich we slept then woke up all cold coz its raining lor . 

heee ^^

baby disturb me again ! ^^

buragas ! 

tpy cute siak dea , kacau2 aku . 

hehs . 

then 10plus , ujan makin lebat , so we decide to pack up and walk thru the rain lor . heee ^^

and off to bedok , and headed to lan game kejap . 

played my hidden object game , then baby had a few games of blackshot , 

then off we went to kfc bought my lunch and off home . ^^

text2 with each other , called baby when i reached homey , 

then now he went to sleep again after makan ! 

haha , i lovemybubu ~ 

meet me again today ! 

heeee ^^

peepos , nak maen game agy , then tyto . 

heh . byeeeeeeee~